Juno

Tonight I watched a movie I have watched before (I actually bought it for $5 at Target-what a steal!) but I experienced totally different emotions from when I watched it the first time.  I still laughed and cracked up at various parts but I also shed many a tear too. 

Throughout the movie as we follow Juno’s pregnancy I was constantly reminded of how Nathan’s birth mom must have felt.  I don’t know if she had decided from the beginning that she would place Nathan for adoption—but she did still choose life for him!  Something I will be FOREVER grateful for! 

Although Juno joked about her pregnancy throughout the movie in the end it was still made clear that the decision she made was a hard one.  I cannot imagine the emotions Nathan’s birth mom experienced in the hospital.  We were told that much like Juno she chose not to hold Nathan or say good-bye.  I cry as I write this and have mixed emotions.  I am overjoyed that Nathan is our son but the road he took to become a part of our family is paved with his birth mom’s sorrow and loss.  His own biological mother, who carried him for 9 months, and felt him kick and move and squirm, gave him over to someone else to raise.  Someone she has never met! 

It’s hard to imagine being able to  make a decision like that—and to be honest if I was in her shoes, regardless of my personal circumstances, I don’t think I could go through with it. 

I still hope and pray one day that I will be able to meet Nathan’s birth mom—if nothing else then but to thank her for being brave, choosing life, and giving us our son…